Minecraft and beyond

Hey Bean, It's your Dad.

It's been a bit since I wrote, but I kind of feel a need to reach out right now, and for me that means taking time to focus on what I want to say, how I feel, and express it. I like the process of writing, for me, it's a form of meditation and mindfulness. It allows me to examine and think through complex feelings. I never quite know what I will find when I begin writing for this reason because I simply just allow my mind to flow and wander. I know at times it may make this all a bit disjointed, but that's also a mirror into my mind as well.

I have always wanted to have a thing that you and I do together. I've tried various ways over various times to make this happen and it's never really worked out. Sometimes it's because of a lack of interest on your part, sometimes it's because I lose focus, sometimes it's life getting in the way, but that doesn't mean I don't want to have that thing with you, I just think we have to work to find it. In the past I kept making the mistake of choosing it for both of us, I would get you all excited by the idea, and then my follow-through would suck. As you grew older you showed less interest in some of the things I wanted to do and you also developed your own interests. As time went on I tried less often with less effort because I had failed so often before and you three reminded me of that fact. However, I don't want to give up on that... I really do think you and I can find an activity that we both enjoy, and that we both can commit to. I was hoping Minecraft would be that thing, but over time it's become apparent that your interest in Minecraft has waned and I understand why. After all you have put a lot of time into that game, you have done all you can do with it, and while you still enjoy playing on occasion, other interests take up your time. I still enjoy Minecraft but I am afraid my interests differ from yours in regards to how to play. I want to build a world with a story, I want to talk about the story, work to make the world what I envision, that kind of thing... but I don't know if that is what you want.

So I want to try something that I haven't done before. I would like it if you gave some thought on a few activities we could do together. I don't want you to worry to much about if I would like them or not, I really just want you to think about what you might enjoy doing with your Dad. Once you have given it some thought, I want you to make a few suggestions about what you thought of, and we can discuss them. I'm happy to do this through writing between our blogs, in text on Facebook, or a phone call. I will leave how we discuss this up to you.

I love you Bean, I would really like to find an activity we can do together, I hope you want that as well.

Hope to hear from you soon one way or another.

Love,

Your Dad